Lovely chat time

Had a lovely chat with my new friend joolz today. It was so nice to share with each other our triumphs and even our fears. As we talked we noted that although we are different sides of the spectrum (which is actually something my Master and i had spoken of before also), the goals our Masters are helping us to get to are the same. For her she has been overly independent and wishes to become more into herself as a subservient. Where with me i am not independent enough and wish to become more self-confident and better at standing on my own when i need to. It was interesting to hear her describe herself as two different sides, one she calls "Julie" and the other she calls "this girl". Julie is more the independent and "this girl" the sub. The intriguing part of this for me is i do the same thing, i have the girl, who is timid, self-doubting, and not at all confident. Then who Master and i call "the lady", who comes out at times is quite confident and just takes care of things without thought. The common goal our Masters are guiding us towards is to integrate the two sides of our demeanor and help us become more rounded and whole, instead of this flip flop type. In this way we may better serve Them confidently and more completely and at the same time come into the fullness of all that we are meant to be. It was exciting to compare notes about where we came from and how much we have already grown. Also, we spoke of how interesting it will be to watch each other as we grown, knowing we are on opposite sides of the spectrum. It seems to us we should be able to learn a lot from each other as we grow. i know i shall be looking to her blog and friendship as i learn to be okay with being more confident and allowing the "lady" to come out more when she is needed.  Equally exciting was hearing how those doubts that creep in are not just something that i am alone in. Of course i already knew this, yet it was so nice to hear how some her worries are reflective of my own. Many of those worries having a lot of roots in our past more than anything in our here and now. Another thing i noticed is how the paths that brought her and i together to chat, were interwoven and how there were other familiarities between us. What i mean is this, her Master was my mentor before i met my Master, so i went to Him for advice or help when i needed some support. Now her Master is away and sometimes she needs a bit of support so she comes and chats to my Master and to me. Also found that she and my Master at one time lived like blocks away from each other, though did not know each other at the time. Her Master is here in the states for a while, where i live, and my Master is over there in the U.K. where she is. She is currently dealing with a situation that in a way i have been through, dealing with a poly type relationship. Then also she has a sick Father who has a type of cancer she feels guilt about and is trying to help and i just recently lost my Step-Daddy to leukemia after having moved down here and taking care of Him in His last days. These are just a couple things i noted, but i have a feeling as we get to know each other better there will be more. Funny how life seems to weave people into each other’s lives and in this case very graciously. i am looking forward to when i am able to travel over to my Master and hopefully will get to meet both "this girl"/Julie and her Master.  i must give my Master a huge hug for leading her and i together as i do think this will be good for me and am really happy to have the opportunity to become closer friends with her.  HUGE Thank You Master!  P.S. "wonder if she knew that the whole time we chatted i had the lovely Njoy plug in *giggles*" Have i told you all how much i LOVE that plug?!?! Back to cleaning now... Hmmm.. don't need to vacuum this time but............  i AM going to be shampooing the carpet... oh Njoy, you and i are going to have sooooo much fun!!!